Monday, April 10, 2006

March 25-April 9

So I'm here at the airport with nothing to do again, Why oh why did I not bring the friends dvds? Why didn't I ask tom to bring me some videos? Why didn't I bring a book from the house? At least I have reader's digest... and a laptop. I can play around with it, get used to a Mac OS. Nuninuninooooo.

So I quit my job. Today was my last day, It was pretty sad... All week this week I was thinking, am I doing the right thing? I don't even have another job, I just quit because, well, I just wanted to. Well not really. I'm still really really hoping on this job. I had my final interview last Tuesday but they still haven't gotten back to me yet. If I don't get it, I'll be totally sad... but people keep on telling me that I should be happy I even got to the final interview. It's a really tough company, so I guess, yeah, in a way, I should be happy I got this far and just charge it to experience. But it would be really awesome if I get the job. If I get it, I'll say what company and you'll realize just how awesome they are. ;p

I'm sleepy. Maaan and when I get home I'll be so jet lagged, Okay think about what you'll do when you get home. I already told my mom that as soon as I'm unpacked, I want to go to town. I want to go shopping!!! I've been so shopping deprived. And I miss all the really nice shops! And I can finally shop all I want! Well not really all I want... almost. Hahahaha. Nooo. Save money if you're not gonna have a job yet. Basta we'll see. I want a white string bikini top. And a pink string bikini bottom. I want to get my eyelashes curled. I want to get a haircut. My hair is soooo incredibly long it's scary. I want to see my cats. I want to see alabang. I want to see my family and friends. I want to watch a movie that doesn't cost me at least 300 pesos. Maaaan I miss my room. I miss my house! I wanna walk around in a tank top and shorts! And slippers! And a miniskirt! I want to get a tan! Speaking of tan, I went last minute shopping and I bought a golden tan tanning lotion from rite aid. I hope it works. I want a long lasting golden tan!

Anyway. So it's been a year since I graduated. In a year, I bummed, moved to the other side of the world, looked for a job, found a job, resigned from the job, bought a car, and now I'm going back to where I started. But at least I'm not totally back to square one. I have something to show from my 7 month stint with LC. I have job experience that will definitely land me another job. Maybe not soon, but it will eventually. Haaay what to do what to do. This is why I hate traveling alone. No one to talk to but yourself. Alone with your thoughts.

I can't believe I'm 22. I'm a year older but maybe not a year wiser. Well, maybe. Just a little.

Girls. We always say one thing but mean the opposite. I wish guys could read minds. That way they'd always be so perfect, catering to your every wish and desire even before you utter a single word. Hahahahahahaha. I'm so spoiled I know. Wala lang. Sleepy sleepy sleeepyyyyyyy.

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Okay so now I'm in Taiwan. Taipei. Chang Kai Shek (Did I spell that right?) International Airport. Terminal 2. I always thought Chang Kai Shek was just a Chinese school in Manila, I never realized it was a real place. It's so incredibly foggy it's weird. I always imagined Taiwan to be a sunny place, since it's so close to Manila. Although I dunno why I ever thought that, when the last time I was here (more or less ten years ago) it was nighttime and it was kinda foggy. I hope it's sunny in Manila, but not sooo incredibly hot. Yuck, now I'm remembering the sticky humid feeling in Manila. But that was during May. I hope March isn't as bad. I can't wait to go home. It's gonna be so… surreal I guess. After months of dreaming of town, of my house, I'm actually going home! Yahoo. This is just so fantastic. Chesca was saying that when I home, I won't want to come back. I was even telling Tom I'm not coming back. What if I don't? I wonder what will happen to me back home? But I know that whatever I say, I'm going back to SF. It may not feel like home, but I guess in time, I'll learn to love it almost as much as I love the Philippines.

So in my flight to Taipei, there were two girls beside me. I think they were Taiwanese, but anyway. They were so incredibly nice! The one beside me tried to make conversation, but she didn't speak English very well and I obviously cannot understand Chinese/Mandarin so we just spent the flight in silence. Well, they talked, I just watched Zathura and Harry Potter and read my Reader's Digest. How pathetic. I really wish I brought a book or videos or something. I'll probably get a book back home, I hear Powerbooks has a sale. And then when we landed, the girl in the aisle seat even got my carry on for me. So nice! I wish everyone was as nice and accommodating as they were. Oh well. Bored bored bored. I'm almost sick of the videos in my iPod I need new videos. I should learn how to use bit torrent so I can download more. Anyway. So that took me 12 minutes to write. 2 hours and 10 minutes to go til boarding time! Nuninnuninoooooo.

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So before my trip I was telling Tom that I'm sooo excited to go home, but I'm scared it might not live up to my expectations. So far I've been home one night and it's been sooo awesome! I love my friends! They planned a surprise party for me and I was able to see almost everyone in one night! I had sooooo much fun, I got sooo incredibly drunk but I figure, it's my first night. I won't get that wasted in bora coz this time I want to remember everything! But so far it's been so great. Yay! I'm so glad I came home! I can't wait to go to bora! And I have the bestest estest friends ever!

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Finally back in San Francisco. Still cloudy and semi raining, but the weather's not as bad as it was when I left. I'm back with mixed emotions. On the one hand, I was sooo happy to see Tom waiting for me in front of the airport. It just felt so good to be home, to be in cold weather, to unpack and settle down again. And of course, to see Tom after not seeing him for two weeks and two days. After being surrounded by all my friends and their boyfriends. :P On the other hand... I miss my family and friends. At least my dad's coming over soon, and my mom's coming in may. Oh well. So I was saying before that I might enjoy manila so much I might not want to come back home right? Well, I'm glad I was wrong. Although it would be so great to stay in the Philippines, since all my friends were able to land fun jobs that pay relatively well and I know that if I work hard, the same thing will happen to me, I'm still better off here. I'm not saying I'm better off than everyone else, but that for me, this is the best decision I've made. Only because living here made me independent and challenged me in ways I never would have imagined happening to me back home. Okay stop with the corniness but it's true!!! I'm so excited na nga for my friends cathy and rach who're also moving here. I know that it's different for each person, but I'm sure they'll make it through, and make it big. so yay, here's to the California chicks!

Side note, bora was fun but I'm too lazy to make kwento. Basically, it was steady, fun, and not as alcohol filled as last years. And not as drama filled that's for sure. and I want to say something but I must restrain myself. I must. Hahahahahahaha.

eL's thoughts @ 9:22 AM
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