Wednesday, September 07, 2005

there was a time...

...when i used to blog everyday. even if i had nothing to say, i'd still blog out of sheer boredom. now, i find myself thinking up sooo many things to blog, but i get home late, and i have to wake up early the next day, so even if i'm online 24/7, i can't write. in my blog i mean. anyway.

so the other day, my good friend nino (o ayan ha! hahahahaha ;p) and i were chatting. it was one of those slow days at work when i had nothing to do, sort of like the calm before the storm. anyways. we were chatting about being single and all... apparently, he's been single for quite a while now, and me, well, i've been officially single since feb. and so we started talking about soulmates, and he said that he wanted to meet his soulmate now na. and then it just got me thinking... being someone's soulmate or perfect partner or the one or whatever doesn't just involve compatibility. or personality. it involves circumstances and timing. it means being in the right place, at the right time, with the right person, under the right circumstances, possessing the right mindset. and those are a lot of rights. kind of reminds me of... was that kant? who said something about... being prudent? i forget. anyhow. so there, i just realized that finding that one person who will make you happy for the rest of your life is very very hard to do. hahaha, everytime i think about these things, i remember my friend cathy b. who recently got engaged. she used to say that she didn't want to marry yet, she had so many things she wanted to do, people to meet, places to go... (which is exactly the way i'm feeling now) and now she's engaged. i guess you can say a lot of things... but it all boils down to whether you've already met that person you want to share the rest of your life with or not. pero sobrang bilib ako sa mga taong nagpapakasal... i mean... that's such a big step. imagine. the rest of your life. iba talaga when you meet the person who will never cease to amaze you with the little things they do... i remember in friends, ross was trying to cheer rachel up coz she broke up with her cheater bf (coz he hit on phoebe), and he was saying that she deserves someone who, when he wakes up in the morning, will say to himself i can't believe i'm with rachel. the most amazing and wonderful person. (or something to that effect.) i want that too. i want to be with someone who will find me forever interesting. i want to be with someone i can talk to about anything. where silence doesn't mean boredom or awkwardness, it just means comfort and security. and of course, i want to be with someone who will never cease to amuse and amaze me, and make me happy. hay i can go on and on. i'm such an idealist. or a romantic. wala lang. nino kasi eh. he made me think. but anyway. even if some people may view singlehood in a negative light, maybe because they've been single for too long, i'm still happy with the way things are. i just met up with a friend from back home this afternoon after work because he's in town for a few days, and one of the first few things he said to me when he saw me was that i looked happy. i thought he meant healthy, coz my face is sooo round na, but no, he said happy. so that's me. happy. and round. hahaha!

i got lost again. clarisse, if you're reading this, yes i got lost after i dropped you off. i soooo need a navigator. i drove 170+ miles just this morning, finding my way back home. isn't that crazy? tuloy, i was in such a hurry to get home because i was late for work that i drove my fastest ever... 85 to almost but not quite 90 MPH. it even scared me a little, because i don't usually drive so fast. thank God i have a guardian angel watching over me (and God of course) because i got home eventually, safe and sound. never again. at least, never again i hope.

btw, belated happy birthday mum! and happy birthday to my grandma who just turned 88! woohoo. ;p

eL's thoughts @ 9:09 PM
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