Thursday, July 07, 2005

omg.

okay, i just read something today that shocked me. kicked me in the ass, knocked the wind out of me, stunned me, and everything else to that effect. if i read it a few months ago i would've broken down, cried, freaked out, become hysterical, but now that i'm more mature (hahaha, okay, now that i'm more aware. or something), i'm clammy and shaking from the shock, but i'm happy to say that i'm laughing about it. you should see me. i'm really, honest to goodness on my bed, laughing out loud.

some guys are just too pathetic for words. some guys are so in love with love, they try everything just to be in love, without really knowing what it means. and some guys use the same lines over and over again in every relationship in the hopes that the girl will actually believe in his love for her. lifelong courtship? (HA! i guess lifelong means a few months.) grow old together? you're different? i've never felt this way with anyone? thinking about us brings tears to my eyes? (now that one really made me laugh.) we have a connection i've never felt with anyone else? hahahahahahahahahaha... what a laugh. really, it's pretty funny. i'm not being sarcastic okay. because i haven't had this good a laugh in a while. and some guys are actually good coz it sounds believable. okay, so fine, not all guys are like that, but please. if he's treated you horribly before, don't believe him. he may think he's in love with you, but he's just in love with love. or better yet, he's just in love with himself. wait til the going gets tough, because the tough will get going. as in, will go away. and leave you behind.

i was right to wonder if it was for real. because really, it was too good to be true. so beware. and don't say i didn't warn you.

i wish i could post it here. but i'm just too nice. hahaha. feeling ko naman ang bait ko. sometimes i am. but after reading that, that thing, i just had to blog about it. it was too much. hahaha it really is funny. if you were in my position, you'd see it the way i see it. basta. sorry if it doesn't make much sense, but when have i ever made sense?

anyway. enough with the comic relief.

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yesterday i attended a hip hop jazz class in mission, and it was so much fun! i haven't exercised in a while (i'd say dance, but then i realized i've been going out so i HAVE been dancing.) and it was nice to stretch and sweat. i arrived in the studio an hour early (thanks to the efficient bus and bart service) and the owner allowed me to hang out in the studio alone. i love studios! mirrors all around, wooden floor... so what i did, i practiced my headstand, i jumped around, did turns, jetes, everything and anything i used to do in babble. i miss dancing regularly, so i think once i finish all my free classes, i'll sign up and pay. it's okay, it will be money well-spent. and once i get my license, i'll attend the evening classes! yahoo i can't wait.

i decided to wait a while until i start the financial adviser thing. so here i am again, back to square one. thank God my parents aren't pressuring me to find work ASAP, and after getting my first paycheck (freelance woohoo), i can afford to wait til i find the perfect job.

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during lunch this afternoon my uncle mentioned the al-qaeda bombing in London, and the Parliament proposal of Ramos. and then he said to me, "ang swerte mo, naka-alis ka na sa Pilipinas." and it's true, i am lucky, but i just feel so bad for the people affected by the huge mess going on. here's to wishing parliamentary is the answer.

eL's thoughts @ 2:27 PM
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